Monday, 3 June 2013

Forrest or Avacado?

For centuries people have been asking the philosophical question, is the grass greener on the other side? Personally, I believed that I had the answer to my previous situation but it may seen as if the forrest green grass of the other side may be the exact same shade as the avocado where I have come from.

So, for the last three years, not including this one, I attended NMMU in my hometown. I stuck it out, gritted my teeth and after three very long years I got my degree in architecture, my BAS. After I finished that I made the shockingly bad life decision of starting again by boing a BCom at Rhodes. The grass at Rhodes had always seemed greener than that of NMMU as my best friend from high school has been here the whole time. Rhodes, as an institution, has always been proud of how diverse the students and faculty is. They have also been proud of how open and accepting the students can be. This I have found is not always the case. Just because Rhodes is accepting does not mean the student body feels the same way. 
I have never been ashamed of my sexuality, it's never been something I have flaunted either but I am not ashamed to shy I have a homosexual vein running through my body and it is here to stay. Although I may not be entirely straight I have never wanted to be an integrated part of the LGBTI community. I don't like the connotations and stereotypes of malicious gossip and flamboyant behavior. I will admit that I did my time in the gay clubs but I feel as if I have outgrown it and now I just wanna settle down and enjoy my time. This has been grossly misinterpreted by the LGBTI community of Rhodes with them believing I want to be "Mr. Straight" and that I'm living this lie. I didn't get this, of all the people that have potentially been hurt by judgement, this community should surely be the last to judge. Am I wrong in thinking this? 

Either way, it has turned out that the grass is not always greener on the other side. The past of pigeon holes and generalization has continued to the now somewhat avocado tinted grasses of Rhodes. Guess that answers my question. 

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