After a week of positive thoughts I think I have done well. I think I managed to get through the week without excessive complaints or bitching. Well, except for last night. Steve and I went up to monument for a chill and the topic wondered onto a specific person. I couldn't help but vent a couple frustrations about his this particular person had seriously f*cked up my year last year and continued to do so for the first part of this year till he went to the UK.
Anyways, positive thinking. I'm about to go home for a week so I can study for the upcoming exams. Yay. Fewer distractions and all that.
Also, unlimited coffee.
So, I am a HUGE fan of American Horror Story. I have loved all the seasons ands the current is no exception. The most recent episode featured Jessica Lange singing a song, Gods and Monsters. It has to be the most tragic yet beautiful, haunting but calming song I have ever heard. I have practically had it on repeat for the past day. I have a problem. Hahaha.
Gods and Monsters, Jessica Lange: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f9_cjsraVhI
Here we go, I am about to embark on the final day of my positive thoughts week. Well, not that I am going to revert to being a bitch and all that but you know what I mean. I wanna finish strong. I'm gonna do this.
Thank you for reading this. I appreciate it. I don't know if I have followers or how exactly this works but hey, thank you.
Sunday, 26 October 2014
Tuesday, 21 October 2014
Cought in the crossire of my own thoughts.
As I mentioned on Sunday, this was supposed to be my "live positive" week. Turns out being positive all the time is a lot more difficult than I thought. Especially when the people abound aren't always supportive.
So today my positive outlook was tested. A guy who lives across the hall from me asked for some class notes from me. I almost lost it! Let me give you a little back story though...
So this guy across the hall from me moved into my res probably about 2 months ago. Until maybe 3 weeks ago I had never even said more than 2 words to him. He is in one of the classes I do and the only reason I know this is because I saw him at the test. He is almost never in class. Anyways, so he asks me today for notes, via a WhatsApp message...
I am proud to announce that I was the bigger person. I bit my tongue, gave him the notes and then reminded him that I needed them back tonight. Some of us actually attend the class.
Other than that I have just been trying to be positive. I don't know if I'm winning or not but I am so tired. On the plus side, I went for a really good run today. It was great.
So today my positive outlook was tested. A guy who lives across the hall from me asked for some class notes from me. I almost lost it! Let me give you a little back story though...
So this guy across the hall from me moved into my res probably about 2 months ago. Until maybe 3 weeks ago I had never even said more than 2 words to him. He is in one of the classes I do and the only reason I know this is because I saw him at the test. He is almost never in class. Anyways, so he asks me today for notes, via a WhatsApp message...
I am proud to announce that I was the bigger person. I bit my tongue, gave him the notes and then reminded him that I needed them back tonight. Some of us actually attend the class.
Other than that I have just been trying to be positive. I don't know if I'm winning or not but I am so tired. On the plus side, I went for a really good run today. It was great.
Sunday, 19 October 2014
New Week, New Perspactive.
In past posts there has been more than enough negativity to last me a life time. I have decided that this needs to change and it starts right now...
I officially declare this upcoming week: No bitch week!
I'm not 100% sure how I am gonna do this yet but hey, I'm gonna take a swing at it and see where it goes. It all started when I watched a vlog entry by one of my favourite vloggers, PointlessBlog. He spoke about 7 way in which one can improve their life. This hit me pretty hard and I decided that I'm gonna give it a shot. I am gonna try improve my life. If this maybe urges you to improve your life too, I have included the URL for the YouTube video below.
7 Ways to Improve YOUR Life: https://www.youtube.com/watchv=aAoR8SJ5IYo&list=PL71AA2459563FF842
In the theme of not complaining and being generally grateful for the blessing that is my life, I feel as if I have to tell the world about the most amazing coffee I had today. So, there is the very small take-away coffee shop in the edge of campus. It is run by one of the friendliest people I have ever met in my life, Sisa. He is always in the most upbeat mood and never fails to put a smile on my face through his genuine concern for people.
Being addicted to coffee I frequent his coffee shop and have thus got to know him very well over the past two or so years. One of the perks of being a regular is that I get invited to the tastings of Sisa's experimental sessions. This is when he tries out the new drinks he creates for competitions. The flavour of today was a crème-brûlée macchiato. Long story short, it is divinity in a cup. That's all....
So, that was essentially the highlight of my weekend. Well, that and a super-cute guy on Instagram liking my selfie. Haha.
It's the little things in life that should make you smile.
I officially declare this upcoming week: No bitch week!
I'm not 100% sure how I am gonna do this yet but hey, I'm gonna take a swing at it and see where it goes. It all started when I watched a vlog entry by one of my favourite vloggers, PointlessBlog. He spoke about 7 way in which one can improve their life. This hit me pretty hard and I decided that I'm gonna give it a shot. I am gonna try improve my life. If this maybe urges you to improve your life too, I have included the URL for the YouTube video below.
7 Ways to Improve YOUR Life: https://www.youtube.com/watchv=aAoR8SJ5IYo&list=PL71AA2459563FF842
In the theme of not complaining and being generally grateful for the blessing that is my life, I feel as if I have to tell the world about the most amazing coffee I had today. So, there is the very small take-away coffee shop in the edge of campus. It is run by one of the friendliest people I have ever met in my life, Sisa. He is always in the most upbeat mood and never fails to put a smile on my face through his genuine concern for people.
Being addicted to coffee I frequent his coffee shop and have thus got to know him very well over the past two or so years. One of the perks of being a regular is that I get invited to the tastings of Sisa's experimental sessions. This is when he tries out the new drinks he creates for competitions. The flavour of today was a crème-brûlée macchiato. Long story short, it is divinity in a cup. That's all....
- Creme-brûlée macchiato
It's the little things in life that should make you smile.
Saturday, 18 October 2014
Damn...
Today for the first time I realised my blog was not getting any views... I had it sent on private.
Well that's awkward.
Anyways, so I put it on public not and I actually have people reading my blog. What!? I think it's kinda cool that people all over the world can NOW read my blog. Maybe it will provide some insight from others. Hell, this is an Oprah moment.
I, however, still will not be telling my friends about my blog. That's just a bad idea. They know the me that let them know. If they had to know anymore... Don't know if I will still be able to call them friends.
Well that's awkward.
Anyways, so I put it on public not and I actually have people reading my blog. What!? I think it's kinda cool that people all over the world can NOW read my blog. Maybe it will provide some insight from others. Hell, this is an Oprah moment.
I, however, still will not be telling my friends about my blog. That's just a bad idea. They know the me that let them know. If they had to know anymore... Don't know if I will still be able to call them friends.
Dumb idea for the day
So I was sitting in YouTube earlier and watching The Monastero Twins (really hope I spelled that correctly) channel and I had the dumbest idea in my head... I should start my own YouTube channel.
So this Idea popped in my head for all of about like 10min and then passed but never the less it got me thinking, what the eff would I speak about if I had to start a channel?
I know that my life is not that boring, I do some fun things. Kinda. I can just imagine how the monologue would go:
"So I had a really good run today. Did a 10k. I'm back under the hour. Yeah..."
That was my dumb idea for the day. Back to watching YouTube and listening to Take That I will go. Lazy Saturday for the win. I think I may go for a run tonight.
So this Idea popped in my head for all of about like 10min and then passed but never the less it got me thinking, what the eff would I speak about if I had to start a channel?
I know that my life is not that boring, I do some fun things. Kinda. I can just imagine how the monologue would go:
"So I had a really good run today. Did a 10k. I'm back under the hour. Yeah..."
That was my dumb idea for the day. Back to watching YouTube and listening to Take That I will go. Lazy Saturday for the win. I think I may go for a run tonight.
Wednesday, 8 October 2014
Sleepless Nights.
Having insomnia can be a blessing and a course. It is great for staying up all night and watching that trashy Mtv show that you secretly love but if anybody had to ask, you would say that you hate. Hell, I just watched over a season of Faking It... My trashy guilty pleasure of the moment.
The down side, however, is that you sit, you lie, you wait and in this time you get to think. You get to question things and decisions. You get to contemplate...
Contemplation is not always a good thing. The number of nights I have been in bed, just lying there, wondering if I was ever going to meet anybody is just sad. The number of times I have cried myself to sleep because of this is even sadder. Having hour upon hour to sit around and do nothing but think about all the potential mistakes I have made is just... No. I don't know what to do. I need to block it out somehow but I don't know how.
On the bright side, this does allow me to keep my shockingly out of date blog a little more with the times. It's quite sad that I only come here to vent my frustrations. One should document the good and the bad, not only the bad. I need some good. Bring on the good...
The down side, however, is that you sit, you lie, you wait and in this time you get to think. You get to question things and decisions. You get to contemplate...
Contemplation is not always a good thing. The number of nights I have been in bed, just lying there, wondering if I was ever going to meet anybody is just sad. The number of times I have cried myself to sleep because of this is even sadder. Having hour upon hour to sit around and do nothing but think about all the potential mistakes I have made is just... No. I don't know what to do. I need to block it out somehow but I don't know how.
On the bright side, this does allow me to keep my shockingly out of date blog a little more with the times. It's quite sad that I only come here to vent my frustrations. One should document the good and the bad, not only the bad. I need some good. Bring on the good...
Second place...
So coming second is never fun. Well try third, forth, fith etc. It's never fun. Seriously. It's the pits.
Coming second to anybody hurts but when it's somebody who you have been trying so hard to be better than it hurts even more.
Jayson, Donovan, Theo, Dwight... The list just goes on. What's wrong with me?
Am I that repulsive? How do I fix this? What do I need to do???
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