Wednesday, 17 July 2013

Ups and downs.

If I said I feel like I am the biggest mess on earth would you believe me. I'm up one minute, down the next. I don't know what's going on but whatever I'm going through, it needs to stop, and it needs to stop now. 

As previously mentioned, there was a certain Mike I had my eye on. Anyways, my fears about distance making a person miss me or forget about me came true in the most shocking way possible. Maybe he is just a bad communicator or maybe he has forgotten abut me, I'm not sure but either way there has been a shocking lack of concern as well as communication. 
Regardless of that, after the spike of happiness that was my one nighter with Mike there has been an understandable free fall. For a couple weeks. Although there was a free fall I did however hit a thermocline and my free fall turned into a spike again. This spike comes with the name of Barnard. He's a super nice guy and all that but there is one problem, one of roughly 750km between us. Yes, he's from CT and me Gtown. Not ideal but hey, he's been great to talk to. 
I'm really starting to like him and I feel as if this could be a problem. I don't know if my frosted heart could deal with any more anguish. More up and down. Am I putting the cart before the horse in this whole thing. 

Tuesday, 2 July 2013

Oh God, why?


Yeah, that's just about sums up what I'm doing right now. I have work tomorrow but no, I gotta go and get all nostalgic. And by nostalgic I mean repeating "Oh God, why?" In my head multiple times. 

Night world.