Why can't it be simple?

I know many people say that it's the ups and downs in life that make it interesting but for once in my silly little life I would really like it to be simple. I don't know if I go and overthink and complicate everything but I'm really getting over it.

"All I want is somebody sweet, kind and maybe a little bit simple"

I know I'm not asking for much but I really want someone just like that. Oh, and this said person needs to preferably live in Gtown too. That would be really nice. I have never really tried the whole long distance thing but I don't seem to think it will work too well. Also, guess it doesn't help that the only people I like are in PE and I'm stuck in this shit hole.

So anyways... Right now I'm just sitting in my room, procrastinating, and listening to OneRepublic's Good Life while I repeatedly tell myself that it will all get better. Yay me. 

Retraction!?

Ok, so I maybe need to retract a previous statement. The glacial reply was due to his phone being stolen last night. I feel bad now. He really has the worst luck, I wish I could do something to help.

I really do. 

Low / no expectations.

My parents had always taught me that the key to never being disappointed is to have little to no expectations about anything. I have always tried my best to adhere to this rule but it is becoming increasingly difficult. Things with Kyle and I are heading in a direction although I am not sure which. We do spend time together. We go to lunch, brunch etc. but I don't know if he sees them as a date or just a meal shared between friends. How does one differentiate between just a meal and a date? I have never been very good at the whole dating scene, most probably due to my shocking lack of a functional relationship. Ever. 

With Kyle being away for the next couple days, going for job interviews in George and Knysna maybe it will give me a chance to think. Not that I spend a lot of time with him anyway. I just really wanna know what is going on between us. He has mentioned he wants to come up to Gtown and meet my friends, this gives me the thought that he wants to become a bigger part of my life but I don't know. I really don't know what's going on. I saw him all of 24hours ago and I miss him already.  Oh, and his glacial speed of replying is also getting annoying. Oh well, it's the price you pay for a potential relationship.