"I don't feel as sorry for the person who goes to bed alone and feels lonely
but rather
the person lying next to someone else that still feels lonely"
but rather
the person lying next to someone else that still feels lonely"
Not sure why but this quote hit me really hard. It's not like I'm lying in bed next to someone and still feel alone, I am 100% alone after all. Sounds terrible but I have come to embrace this. I enjoy being alone. It's great but now, thanks to the festive season, my solitude has been destroyed.
I used to love being home alone all day, just me and Fendi (the dog) in the silence but this is now gone. My parents are off work, who knew they ever did that, and my brother has also come home. We are a full house at the moment and it is driving me crazy. All I want is my silence back.
All I want is to be alone.
I have taken to running and taking the dog for a lot more walks. It gives me an extra hour or so to enjoy the silence and be by myself. I know this is very anit-social behaviour but I enjoy it none the less.
It is what's best for my sanity.
I have been trying very hard to keep up the sunny disposition that I started in November but it has been difficult. After November went well, having passed all my exams, I am now a firm believer in positive energy bringing about positive results.
Lets keep it light. Lets keep it mellow. Put positivity into the world and it will be returned to you.
