Having insomnia can be a blessing and a course. It is great for staying up all night and watching that trashy Mtv show that you secretly love but if anybody had to ask, you would say that you hate. Hell, I just watched over a season of Faking It... My trashy guilty pleasure of the moment.
The down side, however, is that you sit, you lie, you wait and in this time you get to think. You get to question things and decisions. You get to contemplate...
Contemplation is not always a good thing. The number of nights I have been in bed, just lying there, wondering if I was ever going to meet anybody is just sad. The number of times I have cried myself to sleep because of this is even sadder. Having hour upon hour to sit around and do nothing but think about all the potential mistakes I have made is just... No. I don't know what to do. I need to block it out somehow but I don't know how.
On the bright side, this does allow me to keep my shockingly out of date blog a little more with the times. It's quite sad that I only come here to vent my frustrations. One should document the good and the bad, not only the bad. I need some good. Bring on the good...
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